behind

these two munchkins have kept my hands full the last few weeks.

here's the thing: i am just trying to figure it all out right now -
the balancing act of being a good wife, mom, friend, artist, freelancer, homeowner
in addition to having time set aside that is good for my soul, time to exercise, time to rest.
it feels a bit overwhelming to be honest.

but in the midst of this crash course in parenting two instead of just one,
i am savoring the little moments that make up our days.

i like being a mom.


i like figuring it all out, even though i don't feel too great at juggling it all quite yet
(most likely i never will feel like i've perfected it,)
i am reminding myself that
{nursing
diapers
spit up on all of my clothes
a toddler who just wants to climb on me and talk to me and play with me
an infant who is helpless without me
washing little bowls & little spoons
exhausting trips to the park, the library, the store
treks to school
in & out of carseats
whining for snacks
little voices, newborn cries
bathtime
the neverending cleaning up toys and books
loads of laundry full of little clothes
answering questions over & over
last minute appointments at the pediatrician
late nights rocking my little one who can't sleep}
this is such a brief and special season.

my friend hannah has this quote on her blog:

Because how we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives. -Annie Dillard

so true.
and so i am soaking up these busy, messy, tiring days...
enjoying the sound of my daughter's laughter filling the house...
recognizing that time passes so quickly
and the things that i usually worry about the most matter the least

work, cleaning, organizing, projects, to do lists
will all be right where i left them.
tomorrow.

and along the way i'll figure it out.