Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
i am supposed to be taking a nap right now while little m naps, but i've been trying for 20 minutes (uh-during which time she just cried and rolled around her crib trying to get my attention; she finally just fell asleep), and my mind is full of too much and is racing around.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
ah, to be sitting at cafe fanny in berkeley right now. so amazing the cafe au lait there is. yum. throw in one of next door neighbor acme bakery's turnovers - either ham and cheese or apple, and you are pretty much in culinary heaven. people, i am not exaggerating; do you live within 50 miles of berkeley? in that case, you really have no excuses & you need to experience the goodness. i should mention that cafe fanny's beignets (pictured) are not so bad either, but really, they are a distant second to turnover fabulousness.
Monday, October 27, 2008
here are a few during and post-downpour shots. during the craziest rain moments we were freezing, and huddled tight, trying to keep m as dry as possible. notice bec, sharon, matt, adam, and i are soaking wet, while little m is peaceful as can be, napping away, and mostly on the dry side.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
well, aside from the fact that little m is on schedule to get her bilateral cochlear implants this friday, there are other huge things going on in the world. you may ask- is that even possible?!?
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
today is little m's aunt robyn's birthday! robyn lives in mexico city, which is so far away, but we're lucky enough to see her more often than you'd think. i'm so glad that little m has such amazing aunts and uncles: robyn is just one of them. and i am so thankful to have married into matt's family and to know robyn as not just a sister-in-law, but also a friend.
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
since we hadn't heard anything back from insurance or children's hospital, this morning matt talked with someone from our surgeon's office. she said that little m's cochlear implant surgery is indeed set for NEXT friday, october 31st at 8:30 in the morning. wow. that seems so freaking soon. who would have ever thought that our six month old baby would have surgery to get implants! i remember at the beginning, when we were first talking about implants, we thought she would be somewhere between nine months and a year, and even that seemed so young.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
so, pretty great to have our great friend daphne in town from michigan. as you can see, little m is a fan too.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
two pieces of super great news!
Friday, October 17, 2008
The brown enormous odor he lived by
was too close, with its breathing and thick hair,
for him to judge. The floor was rotten; the sty
was plastered halfway up with glass-smooth dung.
Light-lashed, self-righteous, above moving snouts,
the pigs' eyes followed him, a cheerful stare--
even to the sow that always ate her young--
till, sickening, he leaned to scratch her head.
But sometimes mornings after drinking bouts
(he hid the pints behind the two-by-fours),
the sunrise glazed the barnyard mud with red
the burning puddles seemed to reassure.
And then he thought he almost might endure
his exile yet another year or more.
But evenings the first star came to warn.
The farmer whom he worked for came at dark
to shut the cows and horses in the barn
beneath their overhanging clouds of hay,
with pitchforks, faint forked lightnings, catching light,
safe and companionable as in the Ark.
The pigs stuck out their little feet and snored.
The lantern--like the sun, going away--
laid on the mud a pacing aureole.
Carrying a bucket along a slimy board,
he felt the bats' uncertain staggering flight,
his shuddering insights, beyond his control,
touching him. But it took him a long time
finally to make up his mind to go home.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
my brother put some music on my computer yesterday, and i these lyrics struck me:
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
"To Be One With Each Other" by George Eliot
What greater thing is there for two human souls
than to feel that they are joined together to strengthen
each other in all labor, to minister to each other in all sorrow,
to share with each other in all gladness,
to be one with each other in the
silent unspoken memories?
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
happy friday from little m, here with her great grandma, who we went to visit last week in fresno!
- the gurgly cooing sounds of m in her crib every morning, as she plays with her toys (she can now throw her pacifier across the room- which makes ehr quite proud of herself, until she gets pissed that she no longer has her pacifier
- matt coming home from chicago after one very long week of appointments!
- the beginning of the season apples in our csa box
- rediscovering that i love the song "fake empire" by the national.
- chocolate creme pie from sweet adeline's
- sunshine & a walk around lake merritt
- this week's episode of project runway. um, since we have no tv in our house, i love you tube & hulu.com- they feed my media need
- sleeping in (kind of) this morning under my cozy down comforter!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
and congratulations to my dear friend kimiko (& her husband garrett) who just had her first child, a beautiful little girl named yael!
props to my girl m, who spends most of her life driving to appointments. she's quite the flexible one these days, after "singing" to us at all hours with her screams the first few months of her life. today she went to school for therapy and aunt rebecca came along for the ride, so our social m played during the hour drive (each way) instead of sleeping.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
little m's hearing aids are a constant battle. i'm sure you can imagine the joys of wrestling a teeny tiny hearing aid onto both the back and inside of baby ears. we have a wonderfully feisty baby (as i write this, she is screaming herself to sleep for a much needed morning nap), but that means the hearing aids do not go on without a fight. she recently discovered the power of her hands to grab them and pull, so she's now able to remove them, even though they are stuck onto the backs of her ears with wig tape. once they are actually on and she hasn't yanked them off, they feedback with a super high pitched tone every time she leans against something or moves in a way that they get jostled out of her ear canal. this happens constantly.