little m's surgery update

i am supposed to be taking a nap right now while little m naps, but i've been trying for 20 minutes (uh-during which time she just cried and rolled around her crib trying to get my attention; she finally just fell asleep), and my mind is full of too much and is racing around. 

last thursday we went for m's first of three pre-op appointments. as her pediatrician signed off and gave the ok for m to get the surgery, the last thing she said was, "just whatever you do, don't let her get a cold. obviously you can't do anything about it and it's out of your control, so don't worry too much about it, but do your best." we all laughed, thinking how unlikely that would be since m has never even had a cold, and headed down the street to sweet adeline's bakery to get a post-doctors visit treat.

fast forward to yesterday. of course, we all see the end of the story coming: who do you think starts coughing? little m. i mean, are you kidding me? coughing in and of itself doesn't mean much, so i took her temperature today and it is slightly high at 99.5. not good. i sort of wince with every cough, thinking, well - i guess we'll have to postpone it. it isn't the end of the world if she doesn't get her surgery this friday, but emotionally i am just ready to have a bit of certainty in our lives. our insurance hasn't even 100% approved the surgery, and won't until tomorrow, so it just feels like everything has come down to the wire. as usual, little m is oblivious to this and is happy as can be. this morning at her speech therapy she was silly as can be and practically crawling across the room (matt has been coaching her on her crawling technique).

we'll see what happens. for now everything is a big question mark.